Eden's first month

Eden turned one month old yesterday. we took her to the doctor for her healthy baby check-up. she weighs 11 lbs. and 2 oz. she is 22 1/4 inches long. in case those numbers don't mean anything to you... let's just say she's huge. she's a very good eater (obviously) and lets us get just enough sleep, but not too much. no sleeping in.

i can't wait to look back on these pictures to see what she really looked like. of course, i think she's the cutest thing ever. every mom thinks her baby is insanely adorable. but, the truth is, some babies look downright weird. i thought Lillie was cute. i look back on pictures, and still see a cute baby. i thought Lynzie was cute. i look back on pictures and see a very odd old-man-like-baby. haha!!

even if she does look weird (and maybe she doesn't!) i still love it when she smiles. happy baby = happy mommy. although, i can't quite catch the full smile in a picture. it always takes right when the smile is going away.


i haven't been as paranoid about things as i thought i would be. for the most part, parenting Eden feels normal. it's a lot like it was with Lynzie and Lillie. i've always worried about SIDS, so that's nothing new. i'm not any more worried this time than i was before. the only thing i do differently is put Eden to sleep on her back... and that's only for now. i'm sure i'll switch to tummy sleep very soon.


don't tell her doctors... but she sleeps best when i lay in bed with her on my chest. i know- i break all the rules. she's in my bed. i'm holding her. i fall asleep. she's on her stomach. i'm a terrible mom.


her doctor asked what our sleeping arrangement was... she said "is she in her own room? or do you have a bassinet?.." i said "we have a bassinet." which we do. i just don't use it. i didn't bother to mention that she sleeps in the bed with me. i know the medical opinion on that... i don't need to hear it again.


i feel safer with her next to me. you have no idea how many times i poke her just to see if she will move. or how many times i put my cheek in front of her nose to make sure she's still breathing. i am very aware she's in my bed. i won't roll over on her, and i won't let ray roll on her either. by the way... how do people roll over on a baby and not feel that they are laying on something?! doesn't that seem just a bit weird?