rainbow syndrome

losing a baby changes a person in a lot of ways. i'm finding that my parenting has changed... mostly for the good. the only negative is that Eden suffers from severe rainbow syndrome. what's that, you ask?



i have a much lower tolerance for Eden's crying than i had for Lynzie's or Lillie's. Eden cries, i come running. Eden makes a dissatisfied grunt, i come running. Eden is quiet, i come running. the kid rarely leaves my arms. even when i put her down, i sit very close to her. i just don't want her to be unhappy. at all. ever. 


i have created a monster. 


as you might imagine, now i can't put  her down even when i want to. she freaks out. if i'm in the room, she wants to be held. if i leave the room, she freaks out. luckily, i didn't let my bad habits work their way into her sleep routine. she goes to sleep on her own, in her own bed. thank god!!


but, she is very demanding. she knows what she wants, and she knows how to get it.


also, slightly interesting... she's starting to whine the word "boob" when she wants... well, you know... boob.


anyway..  my name is Katie, and i'm a horrible parent. i give my kid whatever she wants, and i'm creating a HUGE brat in a year or so.

i know. babies shouldn't have marshmallows.

but she's so cute!