32 weeks, now

i know i'm getting to the last part of my pregnancy, because i am seriously thinking that it is physically impossible for my stomach to get any bigger. i'm doubting my body's ability to carry Eden for 8 more weeks. i am so uncomfortable; i can't sleep, i can't eat. yes- this is definitely the 3rd trimester. we are almost there!!! YAY!!


Eden has been extremely active the past few days. well... probably no more active than she was in the past. but, i can feel every little move because she is taking up all of the available space. sometimes she stretches, and it seriously hurts. she's head-down now, so i get to feel her feet all up in my ribs most of the day... and then that means her head pushes you-know-where. ouch. 


i don't want to say i'm sick of being pregnant, because i do enjoy all of her kicks and wiggles... but i am really anxious to get her out of me. after 37 weeks would be preferable, of course. i'm excited to see her. i'm excited to be done worrying about hydrops, cord problems, and other general "fetal demise" worries. i am not excited to start the process of SIDS worries. i know that will be my next issue. 


i am also excited to have my body back. recently i have felt extremely gross. i waddle when i walk... my belly button sticks out... i'm the definition of unattractive. bleh. it's not doing good things for my self esteem. hopefully i can look "normal" again quickly... i don't remember how long it took after Lynzie or Lillie.


in other news, i got all my work stuff sorted out. i explained and apologized to my supervisor, and she seems to be okay with everything that happened. she even called it a "misunderstanding". i promised to talk to the teacher about it tomorrow. i will be professional, but i can't say i won't hide a little bit of bitchy in my discussion with her. i want her to know that she was being very unprofessional by talking to my co worker, instead of me. i want her to know that i didn't do anything wrong, and she would have known that if she had asked me. i also cannot wait to show her what i was doing (the rewards chart) because it looks so insanely awesome. it is a great idea, and i think i just twisted my arm while i was patting myself on the back.