easter weekend

this weekend was only slightly stressful. mostly because of the kids just doing kid things. they are quite the handful sometimes.

we are still preparing for Carli's memorial, which will be in a little less than two weeks. i'm dreading that day. i feel like my grief is very private. no one knew Carli like i did. at first, i didn't want to do a memorial, because (as i told ray) we are the only ones grieving. but, various people talked me into letting others grieve too. which means, sharing what i have of Carli... the little bit of memories.

i still feel like i want to keep her all to myself. but, in a way, i don't think that's healthy for anyone.