another pointless appointment

we had an OB appointment yesterday. i honestly don't know why we go there anymore. she's a great doctor, and i do like to hear Carli's heartbeat... but it just seems we would be better off going strictly to a specialist.

all we did at the appointment was listen to Carli's heart, which is still beating healthy and normal. the doctors are beginning to worry me. everyone seems to be at a loss for what to do. it's like "well.. she's still alive... we didn't expect that... now what?" 

i'm really indescribably happy that Carli is beating the odds. i hope she continues to beat the odds. but, i wish there was more we could do. she has made it this far... can't we discuss some treatment options or something? i'm so tired of waiting! all we do anymore is wait. and nothing is for certain. she may come home with us, she may be stillborn... no one knows. i have never been on a more frustrating journey than this one.